Be prepared to feel slightly uncomfortable at my ever eager over-sharing LOL.
She is clothed with strength and dignity; she can laugh at the days to come. ~ Proverbs 31:25
Many women found inspiration in this verse but not me, honestly speaking, it makes me uncomfortable. How can she laugh at the days to come? Has she no worries of the future? What is her secret?
As I ponder this verse and read through the pages of my prayers, one regular theme emerged. I am plagued with fear. Fear isn’t just something that I am somewhat familiar with. It is one temptation that has troubled me for as long as I can remember. As a young child, I was afraid and intimidated of people (because I sensed emotions and underlying motives). As I have grown into adulthood, my fears have become more sophisticated and heart-wrenching. Fear is a constant irritating friend that I am unable to rid off.
Intellectually I know the fact that God is in control of all facets of my life. But deep within my heart, if I am honest, I don’t truly believe that. I admit I am a woman who struggles with fears regularly and is fighting for faith. I am very much in the process of learning what it means to truly fear God. I have not mastered the art of trusting him completely. But I am remembering his promise “Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you.” So I am humbly learning and building my convictions so I too, by God’s grace, can laugh at the days to come. Thankfully God is patient with me.
Credit: Painting inspired by Danor Shtruzman’s Laughing Girl Series 2014